Just looking for sweet friends...

I Can Speak

English

I Would Describe Myself As

Hi, everyone. I am a 41 year old Male to Female transgender woman. I first want to say that I'm absolutely not interested in anything sexual here. Once upon a time, while playing out my forced, male role, I was attracted to cis females only. The bitter end of an 11 year marriage... plus age... topped off with hormone replacement therapy... has rendered me asexual as of November, 2013. My ex wife was my first, and only ever, sexual partner. That intimacy brought me 2 beautiful and devoted children. I said all of that to say this. I am only... only... only... looking for friends. Male OR female. Whether male or female, I am what I recently read termed as bi-romantic. Meaning... I have zero desire for sex... and, am actually a bit repulsed by kissing. (maybe it's a psychological wall that I simply need to tear down. I just don't know.) But... I often imagine cuddling. I ache for it. Massages. Playing with each others hair. Snuggling into long, restful naps. Watching movies in bed. I have so much affection to give... and, I also need a lot of it, too. But, I honestly fear that no one is out there who would be pleased with that. A person who's cuddly and deeply affectionate, but, cannot offer anything sexually. I feel like if I had my correct female parts... maybe. Again, it may be a wall that I've put up, with the wrong parts playing a role in. Anyway... besides cuddles... here's what else I give to everyone around me. My full attention. When I'm talking to people or visiting... I either leave my phone in my apartment, or I take it with me, but it's on do not disturb, except for my 2 kids being able to get thru. Wherever possible, I do prefer the same kind of attentiveness. Kindness. By that, I mean... if we had plans for a fun evening... and, you get too sick for that... I don't berate you or say that you ruined our evening. I go into nurse mode, which is my missed calling, and feel so happy that it is me who gets to be with you in that condition, so that I have someone to take care of. Someone who needs me. I've had a lot of my family hurt me, since my divorce. I've often been made to feel like a problem, if I ever need something such as being driven to a doctor appointment. I get shunned. A lot. Not related to being trans. FOR being trans, I do get Thanksgiving and Christmas family events hidden from me. It's an unspoken rule. What I'm saying is... someone being sick or whiny or clingy for a weekend doesn't bother me. In fact, I thrive on feeling needed. I'm probably making zero sense here. LoL Loyalty. If we're put somewhere, and you encounter one of those jerk friends or relatives who puts you down or takes a joke too far and is obviously hurting your feelings... I don't betray you and join in on their side. I remain graceful, and don't get into an argument with them. But, I make it clear with my silence, and my head against your shoulder while I hold your hand... that I am NOT amused, and that I am on YOUR side. Humor. This writing cannot convey my sense of humor. But... I can assure you, I will constantly keep you laughing. In fact, I have to keep certain humor to myself, unless I find that you can be as messed up in the humor department as I am.

Sign

Virgo

My Body Type Is

A Few Extra Pounds

My Height Is

5' 11 (1.8 m)

My Eyes Are

Hazel

My Ethnicity Is

Caucasian

My Marital Situation Is

Divorced

I Have Kids

Yes - Sometimes At Home

I Want Kids

Yes

My Best Feature Is

Lips

My Hair Is

Dark Blonde

I Have One Or More Of These

No pets

Willing To Relocate

Yes

My Education Level Is

Some College

My Current Employment Status Is

Unemployed

My Speciality Is

Entertainment / Media

I Make This Much In A Year

Less Than $14,999USD

I Live

Alone

At Home

Friends Come Over Occasionally

I'm A Smoker

Yes - Trying To Quit

I Drink

No

Back In High School, I Was A

Outcast

My Social Behavior Is

Reserved, Shy, Observant, Anti-social, Friendly, Comedic, Flirtatious, Strange

My Interest And Hobbies Are

Religion / Spirituality, Family, Dining, Photography, Reading, Arts & Crafts, Learning, Music, Tv, Movies, Internet, Theater, Travel, Cooking, Camping, Volunteering, Computers, Shopping

My Idea Of A Great Time Is

Hanging Out With Friends, Going Shopping, Staying At Home, The Movies, Relaxing, Sleeping, Reading A Book, Playing Dress-up, Playing Video Games, Tv, Going To A Museum

An Ideal First Date Would Be

Meet before dinner... sit and have a long and informative talk after dinner... ride around talking... if things go well, maybe end the night with non sexual cuddling... falling asleep talking...

I've Always Wanted To Try

Camping. I've honestly never been.

My Friends Describe Me As Being

Friendly, Someone They Want To Be, Cool, Perfect, Obscure, Goofy

My Religion Is

Christian

I Attend Services

Never

My Political Views Are

Middle Of The Road

My Goal In Life Is

To overcome all of my obstacles... such as my social anxiety and depression, and get back to myself, feeling productive again.

My Kind Of Humor Is

Campy, Clever, Dry / Sarcastic, Friendly, Goofy

On Tv, I Always Watch

Cartoons, Documentaries, Dramas, Instructional, Movies, Soaps, Re-runs

When I Go To The Movies, I Always Go To See A

Comedy, Romance, Drama, Documentary, Family, Horror

When Listening To Music, I Always Listen To

Country, Pop, Classical

When I Read, I Always Read

News, Auto-biography, Biography, Classic, Comic, Health, History, Horror, Humor, Instructional, Music, Mystery, Philosophy, Poetry, Satire, Romance, Supernatural

My Idea Of Fun Is

People watching... never a dull moment with that!!

What Do You Find Attractive?

Wit, Power, Spontaneity, Oddities, Sensitivity, Empathy, Humor, Good Looks, Thoughtfullness, Intelligence, Passiveness

What Do You Look For?

Affection... Attention... To be wanted, and needed, for the very things that others didn't appreciate about me...

What Kind Of Relationship Are You Seeking?

Internet Buddy, Friend, Date, Intimate, Committed, Marriage